Friday night at home watching Garden State but it's funny all night I have had my grandma on my mind. I really miss her and I know she is still alive but mentally she's not my grandma. I think of how many amazing memories I have with her that she barely remembers and soon she will forget who I am all together. There is nothing you can do to prepare yourself for this and if you say there is you are lying I can almost guarantee it. I am missing the stories she would tell me about when I was a child. I miss her driving because unlike other older women(and yes I am over generalizing)she drove so fast it terrified me. I am oh so missing convincing her to buy me things she knew my parents would never ever let me have like gak and mice. And when I would sneak sugar and get caught grandma would just serve me a bigger helping. There is nothing she wouldn't do for me. Most of all I miss my birthday phone calls she was always the first to call and the last she sang to me in Spanish and English but I'll never get one of those voicemails again. It's funny how we really take things for granted sometimes.
*** I saw my grandma today (3/5) and I told her how much I missed her and no joke she said to me "Aye Mija I remember when you were small and running around all the time." I nearly cried.
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